”There is nothing more we can do for him,” the vet said. “His body is shutting down, and it wouldn’t be fair to him to let him suffer.”
I will never forget that day, standing in the vet’s office with our cat, Pittiput.
It was as I had feared, but I still felt as if my world was falling to pieces and that part of me died right there. It was hard to comprehend that our precious orange cat, Pittiput, whom we had known and loved for 10 years, wouldn’t be with us much longer.
The vet wanted to euthanize Pittiput right away, but fortunately I had enough presence to say that I wanted it to take place at home, so Pittiput could be in his familiar surroundings and so I could have a chance to say goodbye. The vet was kind enough to accommodate me, and we arranged he would come home to us a little less than 5 hours later.
I walked home from the vet, carrying Pittiput in his carrier. It was a ½ hour walk, and I cried all the way home. Fortunately there was nobody around, so Pittiput and I could be in peace. I stopped to sit on a bench and connect with him, telling him what was going on and how much we loved him. It was a beautiful sunny morning in June, and I made sure Pittiput got one last chance to feel the sun and sniff the fresh air.
When I got home I called my husband, who was at work, to tell him the bad news. He, naturally, was devastated and he had to struggle to make it through the day at work without breaking down. Those hours waiting for the vet were very tough, but I was happy that I had insisted on home euthanasia to get the time to say goodbye properly to Pittiput. I spent those hours using everything I knew to be present, to connect with him, to express my gratitude and my love for him. The vet arrived, and everything seemed to be over too quickly.
While I was waiting for my husband to come home and say his goodbyes to Pittiput, our other cats came by to sniff and look at him – and say their own goodbyes.
We buried him in our garden and held a small memorial ceremony. We miss him very much but keep the fond memories of him alive in our hearts.
The beginning of Healing Pet Loss
By experiencing and dealing with the loss of an animal companion firsthand and through helping others heal after losing a trusted friend, I have gained many insights and have created and developed techniques, strategies and exercises for dealing with and healing after the loss of an animal companion. When Pittiput died, I decided – in honor of him and the other wonderful animal companions I have had throughout the years – to use my experience and skills and created HealingPetLoss.com so I can reach out and help others who have lost a beloved animal companion and need understanding, comfort and guidance through the challenging period after the death of their companion.
While a loss so significant is not something you just ‘get over’, I’m here to give you hope that your loss and grief will be bearable and that you will be able to live with your loss, while keeping the love alive in your heart.
Marianne Soucy is the founder of Healing Pet Loss where she helps grieving pet owners cope with and heal after the loss of a beloved animal companion. Her unique approach combines practical steps for coping with pet loss & animal and spirit messages to bring comfort, healing, and inspiration. Marianne is the author of “Healing Pet Loss – Practical Steps for Coping and Comforting Messages from Animals and Spirit Guides“.